Exams(Term 4 😭 )

Hey and welcome to 'diaryofanoverthinker'. So, exams are officially one week away, and honestly, I’m freaking out. Grade 9 is no joke like, I knew it was going to be harder, but the pressure is real.

Today I just wanted to talk about what’s been stressing me out, what I’m actually scared of going into exams, and how I’m planning to deal with it all. Plus, I’ll share a few of my goals both realistic ones and the delusional ones. So sit back, relax and enjoy reading me absolutely loose my mind.

Math

I actually have a game plan for math one that I’ve thought long and hard about. So, as I’m sure you all know by now, math is not my strong suit. At all. But I am definitely better at algebra than I am at geometry.

In Term 4, we have Paper 1, which covers everything from Term 1 and 2 basically the easier stuff like whole numbers, functions and relationships, financial math, and of course, algebra (it’s mostly algebra-focused, thankfully). Then we have Paper 2, which is all the geometry content and things like surface area and volume.

Now, of course I’m stressing, because my marks this term will determine whether I can take pure math next year or not. My plan? To absolutely cook Paper 1 like, I’m talking 90s. At first that sounded kinda delulu, but now that I’ve started studying, it actually feels possible as long as I work really, really hard for it.

Then for Paper 2… yeah, that’s the one I’ll probably be dramatic about. Even if it doesn’t go perfectly, it probably won’t be that bad, and my report mark can still balance out to something good enough to secure my pure math spot.

But still I know I can’t just scrape by. I need to be okay at math overall, because if I struggle now, next year is going to destroy me.

NS

I don’t think it’ll be the hardest term, though. Term 4 NS covers Term 3 and 4 work, and Term 3 was where I absolutely thrived. Like, I can’t even explain how well I did in those sections and since it’s mostly calculations, it’s my time to shine. I can’t do math, but when it’s math in NS, I somehow turn into a genius. Term 4 work also seems pretty chill so far, so I’m not too worried.So, my plan for NS is simple: study like my life depends on it (because in my mind, it literally does) and try to stay calm or at least a little less anxious, if that’s even possible. If I can manage that, I know I can get those 90s and actually be proud of myself.It’s definitely possible, but my issue is that sometimes I panic, totally blank, and make the dumbest mistakes known to mankind. Then, right after the paper, I suddenly remember everything I did wrong and just… crash out. It’s tragic, honestly.I’m not that scared that my marks will be too bad to get into Bio and Physics next year that’s not really the problem. It’s more that I need my marks to be my level of good, which, let’s be honest, is insanely high.

Accounting(or ems)

I’m actually not stressed about Accounting at all, because I’m genuinely good at it. The only thing I really struggle with is the general ledger but that’s honestly the only thing. I just need to go over it properly and hope for the best. Even though I sometimes mess up that one section, it’s not the end of the world because I usually get full marks in all the other ledgers and journals. So yeah, Accounting is chill. No stress, no fear of being dropped before I even get to start it next year.

Then theres business.Now, I’m not taking Business next year, so I’m not exactly stressed about it, but it does count toward my EMS mark. The only slightly scary part is that it’s a lot of content, and that kind of freaks me out a bit. But it’s my last paper, so hopefully by then I’ll be fine especially since I won’t have too many other exams that week, meaning I’ll have time to properly study and get it down.

English

My English marks are like a heartbeat up, down, up again literally all over the place. I am good at English, but my strengths are definitely in literature and comprehension. I can do writing and summaries too, but writing is a total 50/50 because, let’s be honest, school topics just don’t speak to me.

Last term my marks were amazing, and I really want to keep that up so I can end the year with a 90% promotional mark that would be perfect. But of course, there’s one tiny problem: language.

The language section is not my strong suit. I can study like a madwoman and feel totally prepared, but then I open the paper and suddenly it’s like the hardest thing I’ve ever seen. Everything I studied decides to not apply anymore and I just sit there questioning my life choices.

So yeah, my plan is to study like crazy, go over every rule and exception, and just hope for the best. Because honestly, what else can I even do?

In general

I’m just really nervous about my average and promotional mark. Like, in Term 1 I was really going through it, and my average was not the best. Now it’s kind of haunting me because even though I’ve worked so hard the rest of the year and my marks have improved so much, that Term 1 dip is still going to drag my overall average down and I really, really don’t want that.

And then there’s the pressure. Like yes, Term 4 is always hectic, but suddenly it feels like the stakes are way higher. It’s all “keep your marks up” and “you need this average to get into those subjects.” I picked S7, so the pressure is intense.

Are my marks anywhere close to the point where I’d actually get dropped? No.
Am I still stressed that it could somehow happen for the first time ever? Absolutely. Because that’s just how my brain works.

Plus, I’m putting a lot of pressure on myself too not just to scrape by with As, but to actually do well. I want to get exceptional marks because if I can’t handle that now, how am I going to survive next year? So yeah, I’m stressed. Like, majorly stressed.

But I’m also hopeful. I’ve been working hard, I’ve been pushing myself, and if I can just stay focused for three more week everything might actually work out. Then I can finally breathe, relax, and have the best December ever.

So yeah that's my life and I hope you enjoyed today blog I also hope all of your exam stress isn't too much and I hope you all do really well in your exams

Until next time

Byeee<333